I have had an incredible last two days. There has been a situation on my side of the family that I would never have thought would have happened in a million years. I cant give details...but my heart breaks to watch my family go through things that I cant fix.
I don't even know where to turn...SCRATCH that...I do know where to turn...but have they all forgotten? And the family I grew up in..the loving christian home..that I thought I knew....is it gone?
I take on too much of everyone else's hurt and pain. I am emotionally exhausted.
I want to help all the time..and I know I cant. I know all things are in Gods hands. I forget it sometimes and try to do it myself.
Josh and I have soo much on our plate...with just our life ..our boys..financial things...new beginnings....job situations...and all these other situations with my family...I know everyone feels this way and has trials they go through and problems they face but I feel like super glue right now and I don't know if I can hold everything together.
I feel closer to God than I have in a long time...and is this crazy attack of EVERYTHING because of that? If it is.......then please pray for strength and wisdom on mine and Josh's part...because I don't see it ending anytime soon..and God if this is something we are meant to be witness to...to go through...then bring us together as a couple to march head on into whatever and wherever you need us to go.
I say that and I am crying my eyes out. How can I feel so strong..yet so frail at the same time. Why do I have this need to feel for other people.
I feel strange writing down everything I am thinking. It is a release in some way I guess. I am just stuck. I guess I am just asking for prayer. Something I don't like to do. I don't like to ask for anything. I can do it myself ya know :)
Please pray for my family. Please pray that Josh and I will have wisdom and have the right things to say to the right people..when and if necessary. I hope just us as an example of who we are can say more than words. Love.
Thanks for letting me write out my tears. I'm sorry to have been so real...
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5 comments:
Sweetie... Never be sorry to share yourself... I believe that everything in this life time, happens because of God's devine purpose. Now don't get me wrong, there have been times, even now where I question God. However, in the end and in "HIS" time, I really believe God is getting you ready for something more amazing. This is just one of those "training sessions" you must go through before His plan for you is fulfilled.
I will be praying for you and will put you on my prayer list. Thanks for sharing and remember... Your not going through this alone, so stop trying to do it on your own. That's why we have church families. Look at me preaching now... WOW... **WINK WINK ** . It is also nice sometimes to hear other's stories of frustration because it makes you realize... "Hey, I'm not alone in this crazy journey to Heaven!" Thank you for sharing!!!!
Your getting lots of prayers from the Lyon family. I don't know what is going on, but I kinda know from my own experience that family problems can be the hardest thing... You and Josh will be strong and if needed I know you will say the right things at the right times to the right people!... You've got God on your side so basically you can't lose!:D
Sarah
Oh honey, i'm sorry you are hurting. I wish i could hug you right now. Like everyone has said, i know you will have the right words at the right time.
I must admit that i yelled at God "Why...AGAIN!!!," when i recently lost my third child, and then i felt a calm. God reminded me that he has good things for me. Being that it was only a few weeks ago, i am still in the "what's your plan in all of this, phase," but i do believe He will show himself to me and to you. That's all we can hold on to. So i offer you a shakey but believing hand to hold through your tough time. We'll be strong together. I miss you guys so much!!!
Kristee
Thank you everyone. Josh and I appriciate all your prayers. This is a tough time...but were getting through. Love you all !! Mel
Dear Melody,
The closer we draw to Christ, the more we obey and follow Him ... the more difficult life becomes. John 15:18-19 says that the world hated Jesus before it hated us and that we were chosen out of this world, therefore it hates us!
Jesus also said that the light exposes the darkness and the darkness hates the light.
When you walk in the Light there will be those that want nothing more than to cause trouble for you.
It's okay though! We have Jesus and He will give us the strength to endure every trial and problem that comes our way.
Keep standing strong in your faith. Keep your focus on the Light and those dark things around you will grown increasingly dim.
I love you!
Mom A
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